Sometimes things hurt so much that it disturbs your appetite, leaves a knot in your stomach and makes you feel like you're going to vomit at any second. Constant purges throughout the day when you know you have nothing to let out. Sometimes I wonder if emotional pain hurts more than physical pain. I know emotional pain can infect the mind and poison all other thoughts more than physical pain. It can torture every fiber of your entire being. Not all emotional distress, but the kind that is so bad, you cry all night, hyperventilate, and can't stay sleeping, even though that's all you wish to do. You have so many people to talk to, yet the one person you want to talk to is the one that hurt you so bad. Thoughts flow through your mind like white water rapids, splashing every which way, sticking around for only a few seconds, but never fully leaving.
This sounds like a terrible break up, but it has nothing to do with a guy. It's worse than any heartbreak story I've ever heard in my life. This is a true heart break, torn in half with a few stab wounds. Scars will be left, the heart will mend, though it may take a while. Just because you live with someone does not mean you know them. Your best friend has the ability to fuck with your heart almost more so than any guy you like. Especially when they're your sister. Your everything.
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